asked “Why are you pulling my pants down?” The boy ignored her and that’s when she said he climbed on top of her and she felt an excruciating amount of pain after he penetrated her…at just 6 years old. Little Pam still didn’t quite understand what was going on, other than the fact that it hurt. The next boy climbed on top of her and did the same thing and in the middle of him doing that, they all heard a man’s voice suddenly yell something like “Get off of her!” Apparently the telephone service guy was scheduled to come to the house and her aunt had forgot to call and cancel the appointment because she wasn’t going to be there.

The phone service guy had heard Pam in agony after he knocked on the front door to the house and didn’t get an answer, so he pushed the unlocked door open to find out where the little girl’s voice was coming from. All three kids were startled and Pam Grier said that the phone guy immediately told her to go in the bathroom and put on her clothes. She said that’s when she realized just how bad what had just happened to her really was, because once she saw that an adult was highly upset and angry at those boys, that meant it must have been horrible. She heard the phone service guy fussing at the boys while she was in the bathroom and then he made them leave.

When Pam Grier came out of the bathroom, the phone service man asked her “Are you okay?” and Pam answered, “I-I-I-I’m f-f-f-f-fine” and just like that she went from being a vibrant, outspoken little girl who loved life, to being a timid, shy girl who developed a serious stuttering problem within a matter of minutes.

The phone service guy quietly fixed the phones and left, probably afraid that someone might have blamed him for the little girl’s rape. Pam’s stuttering problem lasted for years after she was raped and she never told a soul. One of the boys threatened her and told her if she told, he would hurt her really bad.

Pam said that’s when she says she viewed what had happened to her as a problem that “pretty girls” garnered because they drew the the wrong type of attention, so she began to try to dress down to try to play down her “pretty face” that people always told her she had (please keep in mind that this conclusion about “pretty girls” was coming from a 6 year old’s mind at the time, not an adult’s mind, who has the ability to rationalize the situation much more logically).

Fast forward 12 years later and it happened again at the age of 18. Pam Grier was raped on a date with a guy she trusted…damn.

What Ms. Grier went through is something that changed her forever and although we always saw her as the woman who was beautiful and had it all together, she was harboring a whole lot of pain and turmoil behind the mask of glamour, high heels, and bright lights.

It just goes to show that you never know what a person had to endure in their life to get to where they are and Pam Grier had a hell of a big bag of emotional luggage to carry on her back, but one thing about her is she is a fighter and a survivor on many levels. Not only did she not allow those two rapes to stop her, she didn’t allow cervical cancer stop her either. Ms. Grier is in remission from her cancer now and I guess you can say she’s also in ‘psychological remission’ from the psychological and emotional scars that those rapes left her with. That woman has amazing strength. Fight on”Foxy Brown,” we salute you Queen.